I kind of feel like I’m at a new phase in my life. A turning point. The next step. And it feels weird, of course it does, as does anything new at first. But I feel confident that it’s going to feel so, so good very soon, and it will all be worth it. 

I’m looking for new reasons, new inspirations. I’m making some pretty big changes (of which I’ll keep you posted as and when necessary). But I have new ideas. New thoughts and feelings. A lot has changed recently, or maybe it changed a long time ago and I’ve only just realised it. Either way, it’s different. 

I have a lot to figure out, a lot of decisions to make, a lot of things to do. I guess we all spend our lives trying to please other people, and we sometimes lose track of what it is we actually want and are. But what happens when you forget everyone? When you completely focus on what you want and nothing else? Is that even possible? I don’t know if it is. We can’t, as humans, help caring about people or their feelings or their opinions. I’m not at all saying that it’s bad to want or need or require other people’s opinions, I’m just wondering whether what you want/I want/we want would still be the same if those opinions weren’t included in the decision making process. What happens when it’s all you?