I don’t know why I even watch the news or read newspapers. It’s like - this man killed his kids, this woman shot her friend, this man killed two babies, these two kids killed this other kid, old man after old man after old man after old dirty fucking man raped this little girl, or boy, or both. 

Thank God there are some good people in the world that keep it turning, cos it is a sick, sick place to be sometimes. I don’t know if I ever want to have kids, only to leave them here. 

And that’s coming from me, I’ve been broody as hell since I could walk and talk. 

Ignorance really is bliss, not watching the news makes me less depressed about the world. But it all still goes on regardless, and it’s better the devil you know, eh?

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Barbara Hewson wrote in an article for the online magazine Spiked that the age of consent should be lowered to 13, a time limit imposed for bringing charges, and alleged victims should lose their anonymity, to stop the “persecution of old men”.

Ms Hewson’s comments were apparently prompted by Operation Yewtree, the police inquiry into allegations of sex crimes and child abuse by the late DJ Jimmy Savile and other broadcasting celebrities up to 50 years ago.

Rolf Harris, Jimmy Tarbuck, William Roache and Dave Lee Travis have all been questioned, after publicity over the Savile affair prompted hundreds of women to come forward with allegations.

The barrister argued that “the post-Savile witch-hunting of ageing celebs echoes the Soviet Union”, adding that with the police appearing to have prejudged Savile’s guilt it was not difficult to see why some elderly defendants “conclude that resistance is useless”.

Hall, one of a number of high profile older men to be arrested under Yewtree, recently pleaded guilty to indecently assaulting 13 girls, the youngest aged nine.

Ms Hewson said: “Ordinarily, Hall’s misdemeanours would not be prosecuted, and certainly not decades after the event. What we have here is the manipulation of the British criminal justice system to produce scapegoats on demand. It is a grotesque spectacle.

“As for law reform, now regrettably necessary, my recommendations are remove complainant anonymity, introduce a strict statute of limitations for criminal prosecutions and civil actions and reduce the age of consent to 13.”

Ms Hewson said that “touching a 17-year-old’s breast, kissing a 13-year-old, or putting one’s hand up a 16-year-old’s skirt” were not comparable to cases such as the Ealing vicarage rape or the Fordingbridge gang rape and murders from 1986. To suggest otherwise was to lose touch with reality.

Losing touch with reality a bit there, Barb? I can honestly say, what Barbara Hewson has said and suggested are some of the most disgusting and disturbing views I’ve ever read. 

Hall is a man that ADMITTED he sexually abused 16 girls, starting from age 9. These are crimes that have affected, ruined even, people’s lives. Why should they not be prosecuted? What if these men are still abusing children and getting away with it? 

Thinking that to stop rape and sexual assault allegations, the legal age to have sex should be 13 is DISTURBING. It’s fucked up on every level. It doesn’t matter how old someone is if any sexual act happens to them AGAINST THEIR WILL. Children, adults and old ladies can be sexually assaulted so Barb’s stupid point is void, and changing the legal age would do nothing more than promote sex for children which will clearly result in more CHILDREN having children, or having abortions. Either/or. 

I think Barbara’s views are offensive and filthy. And I really would like to know Barb, how would you feel if your daughter was sexually abused with no justice - especially as justice is something you claim to fight for daily? And how would you feel if your 13 year old daughter had sex? Got pregnant? Had a baby? Had an abortion?

To suggest changing the legal age to have sex to 13 doesn’t change the fact that ANY age girl or woman OR BOYS AND MEN can be sexually abused and assaulted. Any sex, any age. 

Damn, this world is so fucked up sometimes. 

Timing is everything. I’m constantly wondering about the sliding doors, spontaneous decisions, thought out decisions, decisions that weren’t mine to make, missed trains, caught trains. The ‘what if’s, the ‘imagine..’s - who knows where we’d be today if one decision we made along the way was different. 

I believe that everything happens for a reason, I always have. It has to be that way. I just hope and pray that I end up happy at the end of it all, of life. I hope I end up where I’m supposed to be, and I believe I will. I believe we all will. I believe in the power of good and of truth. It shouldn’t be underestimated. It is, constantly, and it’s ignored - but it shouldn’t be. I believe it will all be okay in the end, and if it’s not okay it’s not the end. It doesn’t make sense to me to not believe in those things. Love will ultimately overrule all things bad, all things wrong. What would be the point in any of this otherwise?

Hindsight is a funny thing. To be able to look back at a situation, at a feeling and realise what you would have done differently if you could go back. We all have regrets, even those of us that try not to for our own sanity - we do. We get 20/20 vision when we look back and 20/20 can be a biiiitch. 

But some things aren’t meant to be. Some things are. You live, you learn. 

The past 5 years of my life have been a roller coaster. Ups and downs, good and bad, swings and roundabouts. I made some big decisions, I travelled, I laughed, I fought, I lost, I won, I sang my heart out, I wrote (my heart out), I moved on, I let go, I grew. I have grown. And although we’re not quite there yet, I wanted to just write it down now to say - it’s coming. I took my time, I took control and now it’s coming. 

Time is necessary, growth is necessary. I’ve learned so much over these past years. So much more than I could have if one of those decisions along the way had been different, whether it was mine or someone else’s. 

I’m so much better now and it feels so damn good to have something to be excited about again, to believe in again. It’s been a while. 

I just wanted to share that with anyone who cares, and to tell the people who think I’ve fallen off - my grip is tiiiiiight yo. I never stopped working or hustling and getting shit done. It’s what I do. 

To the people that still send me messages, asking for music, asking for updates and just sharing some of your love with me - I see you, I hear you, man I feeeeeeeel you dawg - and it’s coming. Thank you for your undying support, from the bottom of my heart. It means more than you will ever know.

This guy said it right..

“Have patience with all things, but first of all, with yourself.” - Saint Francis de Sales 

The best is yet to come.